Wednesday, February 16, 2011 12:39 p.m.

I brought Kim back from the DMV in Santa Teresa. She wasn't able to take the test because my left brake light is out.
My fault for not checking... HOWEVER...

I will always FULLY get the blame for something... anything, really.

She's not able to get another appt before her permit expires so she'd have to take another test which can be done this week. On top of that, she can schedule a test for next week. Easily get her license by next week.
Oh, but no. She's crying like a lil' bitch and I'm getting the blame for her permit expiring. She said she KNEW she should have scheduled an appt sooner. FUCK YOU, BITCH! yeah you should have but she wasnt ready at the time. Like when she says no one ever takes her driving, it's bc she never asks anyone. EVER. yesterday i asked her who was going to take her driving while I was at work, she's like... "uhhh i don't know (cause im a dumbass)." I'm like. hello... did you even ask anyone?!! so stupid and passive. She's so damn passive. I'm tired of it. fuck.

her not being able to take it...
... my fault.

if she had failed....
... my fault.

I feel like everything is always my fault. I get the blame for a lot of things in this house. I'm tired of it. I spend a lot of money for the family but no one seems to notice or appreciate it. I make such an effort to buy food for them... even if I don't like it.
I buy all the necessities here. Toilet paper, paper towels, detergent, even school supplies for them. There's a ton of stuff I buy.
I clean CONSTANTLY. Sweeping, mopping, vacuuming, wiping counters. Washing dishes. Taking out trash and the recycle.
I even buy everything for the dogs

NO ONE CARES. nobody does.

I tell myself I'm not gonna spend money on unappreciative ppl but if I don't... then who will?

I'm a bitch on the outside but not in the inside.

I'm going crazy being here. The dogs are the only ones saving my sanity.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011 08:07 p.m.

I'm here working at Dr. Yuan's office. The 730 appt didn't show up and so I'm waiting for the 830 appt. The doctor is with some cosmetologist anyway. She wants to buy like 10 tubes of bleaching cream o_o;;

Prob. won't get home 'til like 9:30. Have some homework to do. Bloop...

My eyes hurt like CRAZY! I've been reading Kat Denning's blog and twitter. She is one weird gal. Uber weird. I can't stop reading it.

I will blog later. (Prob. not) Pat is being annoying.

Ja ne...

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